It’s not your fault
My dear daughter, if you are reading this exact version means that nothing that I did changed your moms heart of kidnaping you from having a relationship with me.
First, this has nothing to do with you, you are just the weapon that mom used. Your mom did the samething to Arthur trying to kidnap him by saying to the authorities that his father was a pedophile having sexual misconduct with his son, but he was a US legal citizen, and through legal fights over years he got his rights back. I am not a US legal citizen and I broke the immigration law to be there, so now I don’t have the right.
I didn’t abandoned you. I don’t have the legal right to be in the USA and I had to leave. I wanted to talk with you every day, your mom blocked me, at the begining I just cryed and talk to you in my mind. Now I just write to you a little bit every day.
Before you
How did we meet?
I met your mom in France, for four weeks we built an Earthship with a group over 80 people. We where very different persons, I was the second person to signup for the course, the first to wake up, to arrive to class, I tried to learn about every aspect. I did tirewall, concrete work, pluming, carpentry, roofing, glass bricks, insolation, ventilation, the list of materials to build the house.
She was only doing her glass bricks and the artsy part, having dates with different men every weekend, sleeping late, waking up late, getting high and socializing.
Sometimes we cooked together, and there where two families with babies and sometimes she was taking care of one and I was taking care of the other, we had moments to talk, she was so charming and even that I didn’t want to start anything I started to feel for her.
The four weeks went by and she went back to Texas, losing a flight in the middle, and I went back to Spain where I was talking to be a builder in a earthship inspired construction company.