Hi Vivi,
I’ve accepted I will not able to see you until you are not under your mothers legal tutoring, for sure will happens when you are 18, but I cross my fingers wishing it may happen earlier. It isn’t a nice feeling, and there is nothing I can do to undermine her desition of not letting us have a relationship.
That said I realized that this blog was the only option of showing you that I was here, and that I had you in my heart and in my mind. I didn’t sent letters or presents because there is no feedback and I prefered the idea of controling the publishing of my letters. But having to seat down and type everyday something has it’s tolls.
I know that growing up without a father also has its tolls. We are both being strongs in our own ways. I dream of one day sitting in a terrace by a beach in the mediterranian with a fresh drink we will be able to enjoy conversations instead of this writen monologues.
Je t’aime,
Papá