Hi Vivi,
This is a scar in my heart.
After your mom cancelled our wedding, I go back to Barcelona, and a few days after she called me to tell me she’s pregnant.
I decide that I have to change carrier and become a software developer because it’s a job in high demand in Austin and well paid. I want to be a provider and I have 8 months to align my career. In USA it costs thousands of dollars and in Barcelona I can get free education. So I stayed in Barcelona.
Every day we had a conversation with your mom to see how her day went and tell about mine. I’m in school 9 hours and after that I’m at home studying, so not to much to say from my side. Now her pacience gets very thin and 7 months is too much, she is getting angrier in every call and she threatens our relationship sometimes. I end up like shit after every call, and I need to be able to concentrate. One day I tell her that I need mental clarity, that I’m studying and that I can’t do anything else from where I’m so I tell her that we are not going to talk for a couple of months.
Two months go by and your mom is in the second trimester. I call her one day, I missed her. She tells me her and Arthur have chosen that your name is going to be Vivian, because is the name of Arthur’s first love.
That’s what I call a Laura’s punishment, because I needed a moment to be able to do a hard task your mom punished me with not been in the conversation of choosing your name.
I wanted you to be Sophie Alexandrovna Routchenko. But it wasn’t.
I chose your middle name, Fawkes, because is the most famous phoenix in fantasy, is Dumbledore’s phoenix from the Harry Potter saga.
Je t’aime,
Papá